Lifes a bitch :1

I've been a bit scarce here and there and I apologize on that behalf.
Some kind of sick had consumed most of what little energy and motivation I have had left and on top of that, 
School and work have taken over my life. 

Keep in mind, I work full time as a receptionist 
I work Part Time as a Graphic Designer 
I am a full time student as well. 

Sooo Sleep ≠  Me 

Needless to say after my doctors visit from the other day, I explained to him what is going on and was basically told that what I am doing right now, is not mentally or physically healthy. Will wants me to take a second day off of work and I am open to that, just the financial struggle is still very much real. I would like to have Sunday off on top of my Saturdays which are off too. 

I am also working on trying to transition to another school to where that I can be strictly online for school. 
I learn better online than I do with a face to face anyway, and I can work and do school that way without those stresses. 

On top of all of this there is a lot going on in my personal life right now that is currently an emotional, physical and mental struggle for me.  Needless to say, I am not coping with it very well and trying to understand 2&2 just isn't summing up to me properly in my head -- things just aren't making sense and regardless of what individuals say...

It is emotionally hurting me more than anything and I don't believe that is being understood regardless of what is being said. If one knows it is hurting me, then why go ahead with this? 
It makes me feel like that my emotions mean nothing ... and my Depression and Anxiety is beginning to take its toll on me. I want to curl up in a ball in a hole and just stay there.